I am a firm believer in prayer. I was taught by my beautiful mother very early on how to pray. And I remember finding her often in her room on her knees in prayer. She instilled in me the power prayer could have in my life. She always helped me develop a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ. So when I pray, I know I am speaking with a loving Father who truly knows me and cares about me.
This year has been a rough one. My anxiety and depression returned. I discovered that my thyroid hasn't been working and my health seem to take center stage for the better part of this year.
My husband had a major job change. A good one. But still a very big change in our lives as he moved from working at home to working in an office again.
And there is just always daily tough things that seem to come up.
Don't get me wrong. We are incredibly blessed. I see it every day.
But this has been a year of constant prayer as I've sought for answers, assistance, and guidance as to how to deal with everything on our plate.
One morning as I dropped my son off at school and grabbed some things from the grocery store, I felt completely overwhelmed. But I knew instantly what I needed to do. So with a quick look around to make sure no one was watching, I knelt my head in prayer. I asked for help. And it came.
I have seen many blessings in my life this year. Just last night as I was driving my sister back from grabbing a bite to eat, I saw a deer out of the corner of my eye working its way across a busy highway right in front of me. As I skidded to a harrowing stop, I realized that He is always watching over me. While it scared both my sister and I, we were spared (and so was the deer).
So this year has been a tough one. I'm exhausted and worn out and sometimes frustrated by the things we have been dealing with. But I've also seen so many tender mercies and miracles.
I've seen house repairs quickly and inexpensively fixed.
I've seen both my children grow in unexpected ways.
I've seen myself cut back and learn what is truly important.
I see daily little things that help me realize I am NOT alone.
I'm so grateful for the power of prayer. And while prayer does not always take away the burden, trial, or situation, talking to my Heavenly Father helps me understand, or gain strength, or receive help when I need in most.
So sometimes even in the middle of a grocery store parking lot, it's ok to take a break and say a prayer and talk with the one who knows you and loves you most. He is always listening.