Tuesday, March 29, 2011

On My Mind
Do any of you watch "Army Wives?" I catch it on occasion, but I happened to catch the most gut-wrenching episode this weekend. It gives a small glimpse into the agony of losing a loved one. To say that it opened old wounds would be an understatement, but I couldn't look away. April is a tough month for us around here. Joey's birthday is on the 14th (he would have been 17 years old), and his passing date is on the 28th. I never know how I'm going to be feeling. Sometimes I am fine and we celebrate his birthday with joy. And other years I can hardly function and ache in a way I can't quite describe. I hope it's a good year, but after losing my brother just a few short months ago I'm not sure. All those feelings are much closer to the surface. And there's really no way around it. On another difficult note, I've stepped down from my position at Little Yellow Bicycle. I LOVED working with LYB. Renee Foss was my Design Team lead and is one of the best bosses around. She kept things organized, kept us motivated, and just treated us beautifully. Love her! In addition, the product designers Sharon and Lori are two of the kindest people in the word (not to mention talented). It's like leaving family, and it about killed me to do it. But I'm always striving to maintain balance, and I had to let something go. I'm going to miss working with them all so much! Keep watching as they have such beautiful new products on the way. They never cease to amaze me.

This weekend, we celebrated Little Man's 8th birthday with a party of 12 boys. Yep. You read that right: 12 boys. And since the weather is still a bit chilly around these parts, it meant a lot of indoor time. They were all really good. My little dude, however, had a meltdown the last five minutes of his party. I don't know why we do this to ourselves. It's just much too overwhelming to one little person. Next year he will get to spend the day with his cousin and that's it. He does much better with his friends in one-on-one situations.


I'm hoping this weekend we can relax and recover by listening to Conference, a spiritual session of meetings hosted by our church. I need some spiritual recovery!

9 comments:

  1. Jen, ((HUGS)) to you. I will be sending you prayers of strength for the month of April. I can relate..my sister's birthday is on the 24th and she would have turned 40. Ironically, her 40th bday is on Easter this year so I am trying to feel like it's a good sign that she's okay. Just wanted to let you know I will be praying for you..we never know how the roller coaster of grief is going to hit us on those "special" days...peace and blessings to you and your family

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  2. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I hope you'll be able to celebrate his birthday with joy in your heart...and if you can't I pray you will find comfort and support in your family, friends and God to get through it.

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  3. Oh, Jen. Thinking of you and sending a big hug. Jane said it well.

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  5. TracieClaiborne12:00 AM

    The other night, out of the blue, I cried for almost an hour thinking of my Dad who died at 49, 19 years ago. I never do that but sometimes sadness just overwhelms you. I say, if you feel like crying - do it! You don't have to be brave all the time. I will be praying for you as often as I can. Love you!

    PS - I accidentally posted as my boss from being in her e-mail and had to delete it if you're wondering who Yolanda is (above me).

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  6. a tone of hugs to you dear Jen... I'm thinking of you during these days!

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  7. i love army wives, and that really was an emotional episose this week. my thoughts will be with you during this upcoming month. i know it's not an easy time for you.

    and i'm so bummed you're leaving LYB. you do such amazing things with their products! but at the same time, i totally understand about finding balance. it's not my strong point, and i know i need to work on that more.

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  8. Oh Dearest Jen,You are always in my prayers I cannot imagine... I pray for peace and comfort for you and your family...xo

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