Rough Night and Some Happier Thoughts

I should have known. I've been feeling relatively at peace lately. But that was not the case last night. Hit me like a ton of bricks. All the feelings, all the worry, all the grief. I keep a personal journal in addition to my blog and my scrapbooking. In it I record more of my deeper feelings. I'm trying to write my way through my feelings. It helps a little. It was shocking, however, to go back and read through my brother's deterioration and realize what had been happening all along. I still can't wrap my mind around it. My throat is sore this morning from the crying. I'm glad we have a long holiday weekend. I want to spend it with the kids doing holiday things and just resting. I have work today and some tomorrow and then I'm going to step back for just a bit. Last night totally caught me off guard.

In the spirt of work and trying so hard to push forward, I wanted to share a layout and a card with Crystal Wilkerson's beautiful Echo Park line "Little Boy." Crystal knows just the right color combination. I love the patterns and colors in this line. And I truly enjoyed using her beautiful products. Thank you, Crystal!

You can find the line to purchase here at 2Peas:

And here is the card. I paper pieced (remember how to do that?) a little boat to make this card:

And now I am off to try and work through the day. I really want and need the distraction!


  1. BIG hugs coming your way Jen. I'm really sorry you had such a rough night, but maybe that good long cry was just what you needed. Working through the grief always helps from my experience. I hope writing in your journal helped and I'll pray that the happy memories will take place of the sad ones soon for you. :)
    - April W

  2. ((HUGS)) to you Jen. Grief is like a roller coaster and I know you know that. Be gentle with yourself at the low points. Wishing you peace during this Thanksgiving weekend. ((HUG))

  3. I second the "be gentle with yourself" comment. You need to be ok with the fact that didn't know then what you do know now. Take care of YOU. God bless.

  4. Jen, hope you have a better night tonight. I hope your journaling helped you sort out your thoughts. As you well know, grief and the loss of a loved one never follow a straight or even path. And that loved one is never truly gone forever, you will see your son and brother again in time. I just hope the happy memories are on your mind more than the sad ones. ((Hugs))


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