Difficult Week
You know I most often feel that I (and my family) are in a relatively good place after the things we have been through in our lives. I feel genuinely happy and look forward to things like Christmas.
But then something will happen, and I am reminded that our wounds are still fresh and we haven't quite healed; and perhaps a part of us never will.
This past week our family faced another difficulty. I won't go into any details except to say that it was traumatic and sad but it is over now and we are again trying to move forward.
I would do anything I could to spare my children any worry, but life is full of difficult moments and sad things. And those experiences are the events that make us who we are. And I could not have spared them this (although I would have if I could have).
I am a private person, and I don't typically like to share my personal trials and that is why I don't feel comfortable sharing the details. But I do know that some people know, and I appreciate their love and concern as we deal with yet another trial.
I love my kids and my husband, and hearing their worry and sadness (along with my own grief) has been difficult. But I think I needed to be reminded to be cautious and careful with their tender feelings and respect their own perspective on losing Joey and the other things we have had to face in our married life.
I am grateful for them--so very grateful!
I know that this is typically a "work" blog, but so many people know of our son's experience and I haven't felt like posting anything creative for days, and wanted to sort of explain why. I am sure that I will be back to a new "normal" as Christmas approaches. I do want it to be a very happy time for my children. That's important to me.
So if we don't talk before then, Happy Holidays!